Stealing my pictures from my mother's camera
I believe I took all of them
July 10, 2009
June 15, 2009
La'Bri Update
After a lot of prayer and "arguing" and "discussing" with God, myself, family, and friends
God has shown me it is not my time to go to La'Bri
I still believe He may want me to go sometime in the near future
but not any time that I was planning
I believe He wants me to stop trying to make plans that He knows harm me rather than help me - I tend to become slave to the plans I make and when things don't work out, I freak out
So, I'm putting La'Bri off for a while
For those of you who have given me money, I will still use it for La'Bri (unless God completely doesn't want me going and has plans for me elsewhere)
and the money is in the bank with "La'Bri" "written" on it
Lol, I'm using a lot of quotation marks
So yeah, that's where I'm at now
God has shown me it is not my time to go to La'Bri
I still believe He may want me to go sometime in the near future
but not any time that I was planning
I believe He wants me to stop trying to make plans that He knows harm me rather than help me - I tend to become slave to the plans I make and when things don't work out, I freak out
So, I'm putting La'Bri off for a while
For those of you who have given me money, I will still use it for La'Bri (unless God completely doesn't want me going and has plans for me elsewhere)
and the money is in the bank with "La'Bri" "written" on it
Lol, I'm using a lot of quotation marks
So yeah, that's where I'm at now
June 06, 2009
La'Bri Blog
I will be going to La'Bri in Switzerland (a Bible Institute founded by Francis Schaeffer) hopefully in August.
I've been asked to post a blog, and instead of making a new one, I'll just use my old one
I'm too lazy at this point to look through my blog and delete anything, so I hope there's nothing too terrifying on it :P
But yes, this is the beginning of my La'Bri blogg
It will probably cost me around $5,000 and I will try to be there for four monthsss
annnd, if I find someone who I can trust, I will try to travel around Europe a little bit too
xD
I've been asked to post a blog, and instead of making a new one, I'll just use my old one
I'm too lazy at this point to look through my blog and delete anything, so I hope there's nothing too terrifying on it :P
But yes, this is the beginning of my La'Bri blogg
It will probably cost me around $5,000 and I will try to be there for four monthsss
annnd, if I find someone who I can trust, I will try to travel around Europe a little bit too
xD
January 21, 2009
Will You Remember Me Tomorrow
I really like this song
and I kind of dance like her - shows you how bad I am.. elohel
^.^
I feel schizophrenic (woah, I spelled that right the first time) - this blog will sometimes be serious, sometimes be completely random
January 04, 2009
Suicide
I'm writing this for really anyone I personally know
But I guess it's mostly for those I go to school with
(This note is mostly for the girlies I know. Sorry, guys, you'd require a whole new note)
I'm writing this because I want you to know who I am..and I would really appreciate some feedback. This note is what I've been wanting to say out loud - but never found the courage or the right time.
I know I'm quiet and not very open, and may even seem rude at times. I'm sorry. The truth is, I'm terrified. I often see how close you are to one another or how you guys can talk or whatever (often little tings) and I get extremely jealous. "I remember having a friend like that once." "I want that kind of relationship." "I wish I could be that way."...but then I think that if I try to be a part of your relationships, I'll impose and ruin things. Then I close myself off - hoping that if you really wanted me, maybe I wouldn't ruin things. If I close myself off, you'll come and get me. I know how wrong this is - expecting you to read my mind and come pull me out of my self-pity. I need to get out of my home-made coffin, my "safe haven" and actually put out effort....
This is my attempt.
It is very hard for me to dislike someone. (However, many guys I know right now kind of are-sorry-nothing personal, you're just of the male species :P) If I push you away, it's usually just because I'm afraid I'll hurt you, or because I think you're talking to me just to be nice (you know-you have to include everyone....) I often push away to see if you're willing to "put up a fight" for me. To see if you really care. I'm really tring to break this. And right now I'm epically failing. I need help.
I guess what I'm is: I love you all. I'm just afraid I'm not good enough for you.
I'm entralled with all of you (people in general amaze me) and I don't want to push you away.
One thing that would really help me in my "quest for friendship" (haha?) is I would really appreciate it if you told me if you would rather me leave you alone (I don't care if you hate me - I only fear I'm hurting/annoying you) or if you'd like to be friends, or.......
I need to know what you want from me. I need to know what I can to reach out-to stop being so complacent. I need to know how to not hurt you-whether that means you would like me to say hi or even hug you when you walk in the room, whether that means you just want to hang out, I don't know..lol. I'm willing to do anything. I just need to know
I'm sick of the self-absorbed me-I need to die.
Help?
(ugh, I know this sounds really cheesy and I'm sorry-not really sure what else to do)
But I guess it's mostly for those I go to school with
(This note is mostly for the girlies I know. Sorry, guys, you'd require a whole new note)
I'm writing this because I want you to know who I am..and I would really appreciate some feedback. This note is what I've been wanting to say out loud - but never found the courage or the right time.
I know I'm quiet and not very open, and may even seem rude at times. I'm sorry. The truth is, I'm terrified. I often see how close you are to one another or how you guys can talk or whatever (often little tings) and I get extremely jealous. "I remember having a friend like that once." "I want that kind of relationship." "I wish I could be that way."...but then I think that if I try to be a part of your relationships, I'll impose and ruin things. Then I close myself off - hoping that if you really wanted me, maybe I wouldn't ruin things. If I close myself off, you'll come and get me. I know how wrong this is - expecting you to read my mind and come pull me out of my self-pity. I need to get out of my home-made coffin, my "safe haven" and actually put out effort....
This is my attempt.
It is very hard for me to dislike someone. (However, many guys I know right now kind of are-sorry-nothing personal, you're just of the male species :P) If I push you away, it's usually just because I'm afraid I'll hurt you, or because I think you're talking to me just to be nice (you know-you have to include everyone....) I often push away to see if you're willing to "put up a fight" for me. To see if you really care. I'm really tring to break this. And right now I'm epically failing. I need help.
I guess what I'm is: I love you all. I'm just afraid I'm not good enough for you.
I'm entralled with all of you (people in general amaze me) and I don't want to push you away.
One thing that would really help me in my "quest for friendship" (haha?) is I would really appreciate it if you told me if you would rather me leave you alone (I don't care if you hate me - I only fear I'm hurting/annoying you) or if you'd like to be friends, or.......
I need to know what you want from me. I need to know what I can to reach out-to stop being so complacent. I need to know how to not hurt you-whether that means you would like me to say hi or even hug you when you walk in the room, whether that means you just want to hang out, I don't know..lol. I'm willing to do anything. I just need to know
I'm sick of the self-absorbed me-I need to die.
Help?
(ugh, I know this sounds really cheesy and I'm sorry-not really sure what else to do)
September 25, 2008
Doing Hard Things
As I mentioned in my previous blog, in Latin class we read this book called Do Hard Things. While reading I've had a few thoughts and thought I might share them.
Feel free to comment xD
The book explains how teenagers' expectations have been lowered and that we need to rebel against these expectations and "do hard things."
Not hard things like starving ourselves to death, or living in the worst conditions we can, they mean raise our expectations. At first I agreed. Yeah, our expectations have been lowered. In Humanities, Literature, and Theology class we explored the different people and it seemed that all the people we learned about accomplished great things at very young ages.
The book then went into detail about some of the things they accomplished by posting a blog telling teens about our lowered expectations. Receiving lots of response, they were eventually asked to help with some political stuff (sorry, can't remember specifics right now).
In other words, they got "big" jobs at a young age. They also started their own campaign.
"This is great and all," I thought, "but it doesn't sound like anything I'd want to do or even be able to do."
(I often wonder what these boys are like - are they the geeks that no one liked? Are they likeable, but extremely smart and type A? - I really want to meet them just to find out)
Ater thinking about this for a while, I wondered "Is this in God's Word - that we need to get jobs at a young age?"
It seems to me that people often take life too seriously
Some people, like me, I believe, are meant to take life a little slowly
People tend to rush into things too quickly. I still think you can do hard things and make something great out of yourself and bring glory to God without having to throw out all the things that young people can enjoy. For example, once we get jobs we want to move out and then we abandon our families.
Communities aren't as close as they were back then. We don't live close to our families when we leave the house unlike they did then.
It also seems to me that people get so distracted from their jobs, etc, they tend to lose focus on God and their jobs and such get in the way.
I'm sorry if this is a bit confusing. To wrap up. They don't give biblical explanations for doing hard things. Perhaps there's other ways other than growing up really fast (and we're only halfway through the book so they may have other examples) but so far I don't really agree.
I do agree, however, that we do only fulfill our expectations and right now they're low.
We do have more potential
(I have more thoughts, but I'll share them next time I have the chance)
Feel free to comment xD
The book explains how teenagers' expectations have been lowered and that we need to rebel against these expectations and "do hard things."
Not hard things like starving ourselves to death, or living in the worst conditions we can, they mean raise our expectations. At first I agreed. Yeah, our expectations have been lowered. In Humanities, Literature, and Theology class we explored the different people and it seemed that all the people we learned about accomplished great things at very young ages.
The book then went into detail about some of the things they accomplished by posting a blog telling teens about our lowered expectations. Receiving lots of response, they were eventually asked to help with some political stuff (sorry, can't remember specifics right now).
In other words, they got "big" jobs at a young age. They also started their own campaign.
"This is great and all," I thought, "but it doesn't sound like anything I'd want to do or even be able to do."
(I often wonder what these boys are like - are they the geeks that no one liked? Are they likeable, but extremely smart and type A? - I really want to meet them just to find out)
Ater thinking about this for a while, I wondered "Is this in God's Word - that we need to get jobs at a young age?"
It seems to me that people often take life too seriously
Some people, like me, I believe, are meant to take life a little slowly
People tend to rush into things too quickly. I still think you can do hard things and make something great out of yourself and bring glory to God without having to throw out all the things that young people can enjoy. For example, once we get jobs we want to move out and then we abandon our families.
Communities aren't as close as they were back then. We don't live close to our families when we leave the house unlike they did then.
It also seems to me that people get so distracted from their jobs, etc, they tend to lose focus on God and their jobs and such get in the way.
I'm sorry if this is a bit confusing. To wrap up. They don't give biblical explanations for doing hard things. Perhaps there's other ways other than growing up really fast (and we're only halfway through the book so they may have other examples) but so far I don't really agree.
I do agree, however, that we do only fulfill our expectations and right now they're low.
We do have more potential
(I have more thoughts, but I'll share them next time I have the chance)
September 06, 2008
Velcome
To my humble blog...
At the beginning of Latin class today we began to read a book called, Do Hard Things.
Two teenage boy wrote the book in order to call teenagers to start a "Rebelution" In other words, to rebel against low expectations
They were talking about how they started a blog telling their ideas about the rebelution and filled with other things teenagers deal with
Thinking it was a wonderful idea to start a serious (for the most part) started this one
I'll probably upload pictures for friends who don't have facebook or myspace to see and also tell of my thoughts on radom things I learn at school, talking to others, or just in life
I hope it's not too boring, and if you want -leave messages. responses, ideas, questions, concerns, etc...
At the beginning of Latin class today we began to read a book called, Do Hard Things.
Two teenage boy wrote the book in order to call teenagers to start a "Rebelution" In other words, to rebel against low expectations
They were talking about how they started a blog telling their ideas about the rebelution and filled with other things teenagers deal with
Thinking it was a wonderful idea to start a serious (for the most part) started this one
I'll probably upload pictures for friends who don't have facebook or myspace to see and also tell of my thoughts on radom things I learn at school, talking to others, or just in life
I hope it's not too boring, and if you want -leave messages. responses, ideas, questions, concerns, etc...
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